Perceptions.

There have got to be people that stumble on this.

And it makes me curious.

Reading a few posts that are on the page, I can't imagine what someones perception of me would be.  I'm not saying that it matters, that isn't going to change the way I write or think, but it does make me curious.  I like how you probably couldn't make a concise statement about me based on the words here.  I find them complicated.

I may be wrong.

But I like to think that there is something to what I write.  Some meat to the words that I'm putting down.  That is something that I always revel in.  Those words that masters write that give me so much more to chew on than just empty thought and emotion.  Those words that give me hope and fear and joy all at once.  I like to think that maybe sometimes I pull that off.

The other thing that I like to think, is that this is making me a better writer.  Had a short discussion with Ja. on how I need to really expand my descriptive vocabulary, because when I'm talking I talk about how things are, "hard to explain."  But I'm thinking that by using this place to really think about the words that I want to use that I am actually making myself a better writer.

I'm not sure how true that is, but it is what I like to think.

Maybe sometime a long time from now I will look back at posts like this and think.  Silly young man.  You were never meant to be a good writer, or silly mortal, how could you not know that your words would get so much better if you just kept writing.

I guess for me this is kind of like exercise.

I'm working out so that when I really bear down to write it comes out good.  And that is something that I've been really caught up in the last couple of days.  Just hearing and reading has changed for me again.  Like it has so many times before.  I'm re-recognizing the power of words.  That they can be so much more than sticks and stones.  That they are vital and alive, and powerful.  I like that.  And I like to think that maybe sometimes I wield the power.

Dumb?  Maybe, but that is OK.  I have no problems being dumb sometimes.

Here is to exercise.

File under Virtue.