Usually those days have to do with money.
So throughout my life I've lived beyond my means (a fatal flaw), and now that I'm trying to get out of that loop I'm still having to pay a lot of people back money (this is what I get for trying to please people that don't necessarily need to be pleased). On top of that my severe lack of organization means that amidst all the payment arrangements that I have made I forget who I'm paying when.
That leads me to this weekend.
To many payment arrangements and a bill that didn't get paid like I thought it had equals termination of phone service.
Equals I feel like an idiot.
Equals I can't communicate with anyone.
And that makes me feel wired. I'm so plugged in. I'm so connected via phone and e-mail and text message to everyone that I know, that on those random days when I don't actually have the ability to communicate with the people that I want to, I feel more isolated that I probably should.
The instant I got the phone running again I wanted to call everyone that I knew just to tell them what was happening. But then again I also knew that a) I have very limited minuets till I get paid and can pay my full bill, and b) most everyone I know didn't call me randomly on a Sunday for no reason.
It kind of puts me in my place in the world.
A little under the weather, I think I will keep drinking Hot Toddys and go to bed.
File under a very insecure Vice.
4 comments:
"no man is an island, entire of itself..." John Donne
"i'm sorry mr. donne, but, go fuck yourself." ja.
i can smell what you are cookin in this current stew. it leads me back to my ideas about anti-industrialization and a world out of balance. people think primativism is a step backwards but it really isn't. it is the advancement of ethics and morality combined with a renewed sense of purpose. i believe technology has given us many great things but when i evaluate the state of mankind with and with out modernization i must say we were better people when we did not have the leisure provided by technology.
I just read a paragraph from Merton on how News can be addiction. It really got me to thinking. And thinking that in our society it is media more than just news.
So I think we may have to start 1% church. And that isn't a joke.
yes.
Good, it is decided.
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