Esoterica

So when I get depressed or deliriously happy I get esoteric.

I find that my writing becomes vague and a little noodley.

Self indulgence to be sure, maybe some kind of coping mechanism. But I find it to be really healing to be vague. To say what I want and even keep the select people that read this out of some of the loops. Probably some kind of power trip.

But today, I don't feel like that. Today is one of those gloomy days that makes you just want to sit in your house and read. But I didn't. I seem to have the energy to not just call in sick like I used to. It is the kind of day that I just want to cook and ignore the rest of the world. But I didn't. Instead I actually did some responsible stuff, including actually talking to people that want money from me, and taking care of my kids, and of course work.

So today there is no esoterica. Just hard work and mostly clear thoughts. Maybe I will try to sleep some more tonight.

Today is a normal day.

I hope to have more like this.

File under Virtue