1%

Ja. and I sit in the hookah bar.



The discussion is roving from place to place, and lands (as it often does) on spirituality.


And we came back to a fairly regular discussion that we have fleshed out.


1%


This is a concept that some may not be familiar with. But in the world of motorcycle enthusiasts there is an idea that only 1% of them are the criminal, outlaw fringe. Those are the ones that rape and pillage under monikers like Hell's Angels, Mongols, or locally Sons of Silence. They are the bikers that you see in movies, and on TV. That Dr. Thompson writes about. That the world fears.


Ja. and I are far from that. Neither of us own a motor cycle. But when we look at faith and God, and the church we find ourselves on that lunatic fringe. There we are the 1%.


Through drink and smoke, and the secret dagger that is lodged in my heart by a love that I cannot have fully. I find myself on the fringe of the society that has embraced me. I may not be a biker, but as someone that follows Christ, I'm still willing to drunkenly stumble home, fend off a mugger with a straight razor, find myself in bed with a beautiful half naked woman. I'm comfortable with that. And I'm also comfortable with God calling me into ministry.


It has done it to me twice now.


On top of that I'm willing to throw my life away for The One. I'm the one willing to do, "that." Whatever "that" may be.


But by living on the fringe of faith, I find myself a corrupter, and a millstone wearer, ready and willing to toss myself into the ocean, and make my way to eternal reward. Will there be a sinner's Heaven? I will be more than willing to end up there. I'm more than willing to share glory with other sinners that had faith and love for the One. The list is long and arduous, there are those that professed faith that other may balk at (Hitler and Ted Bundy I'm looking at you). But if all sin is sin, and if Christ died for all sin, then who am I to judge. If Paul was the greatest of sinners, what the fuck does that make me.


If if that makes me what I think it makes me, then I will be like those so willing to fall on faith in the hopes that I will have a glimpse of paradise, if only to live in Heavenly slums.


So I'm willing to be "that." I'm willing to be Loki. I'm willing to be Tyler Durden. I'm willing to be a sleeper cell. I'm willing to be the Serpent in the garden, or on the staff. I'm willing to be a motherfucking man of God. I'm willing to serve the One however It pleases, doing whatever It pleases. It is my father and my mother, and my brother and my sister. It is my gang, and I'm Its jumped in bitch.


I'm 1%.

File under Virtue.