And though often I like it like that.
Sometimes it is a real drag.
Some of you know why my situations are so frustrating. And some of you don't (someone has even taken advantage of that, and that doesn't make me happy at all). But when it comes down to it, I'll live.
No matter how many times I can't be with the person I want to be with.
No matter how much the bills pile up and I can't pay.
No matter how cold God feels to me on any given day.
I'll live, till my time is up, and then, I'll just move on to the next thing, whatever that may be.
Swing low sweet chariot of flame,
Say my name.
So some things don't work out the way you would hope. That is how life is. That is how mine is at least. And when it comes to that crux point, and I have to decided between a sacrificial lamb and myself, I'll send myself to the altar every time. Greater love hath no man, and all that shit.
I'm stronger than I remember being before though. It seems like I can take diversions and strife more in stride than I used to. It is good to know that through all of the shit of last year, I grew some. I find that I can't help but be happy, because no one is trying to tell me what to do, or hold me back. So when the bumps in life hit, I seem able to slow down and go over them like a speed bump, rather than trying to just four wheel over it. That is a nice feeling.
My friends tell me that they see it too. And that is reassuring. It is nice to know they are paying attention. And it is nice to know that people can understand that I had to change to make it through life. And I didn't really go away, or become a different person, I just changed some. I got more healthy, at least for me.
And all of this is to say to you today, faithful and unfaithful readers. Happy new year. It has got to be better than the last one.
Here is to Resurrection.
File under Virtue.
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