I went to get a couch. But the real reason is obvious to those who notice.
And she was there.
It is strange, because after a weekend of insanity, I just wanted to see someone cute, and have a crush on them for a few minuets. I wanted to think innocent thoughts, and have childish fantasies. Sometimes it is nice. I will probably take no further action on this particular avenue for fear of it turning into something depraved and ugly. I don't think I have the right frame of mind to be seeing someone that I really would like to know. My thoughts would be to evil and dark.To that end, one of my smitten and I have decided that it will be good for us to be friends before anything else. I love that. I love that she wants to be around and near me because we are friends first. To talk about things, enjoy good food, watch movies. I need to find a way to keep it at that level so I don't make it something horrible. Because that is where I'm taking things lately, and I don't want to. I would rather not end up in the arms of a stranger, wondering what the hell I'm doing.
I honestly would rather not.
I seek meaning in all of this.
That is good I think.
File under Virtue.
2 comments:
Become. Be.
You are becoming the man you want to be. And you will be the man you want to be.
I wish you the best of luck!
Thanks for the kind words, I really appriciate that.
I do my best to work through some of this shit, without going to insane. And as a consiquence I think I am actually becomeing something that I'm comfortable, and that God may in fact be comfortable with. Or at least someone He doesn't want to hit with lightning.
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